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[19 Feb 2006|05:07pm]
Alright everyone!

my new livejournal is : jamiekins21487

You can comment on here or there to be added... The new one is acutally better than this one so im really not that upset anymore. Thanx to those of you who are awesome!

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[19 Feb 2006|04:02pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]


I am forced to make a brand new livejournal

SO if you are on my friends list and you wish to be added again please leave me a comment.

I will post again soon with my new FRIENDS ONLY livejournal.


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[19 Feb 2006|01:54pm]
I am having a problem... if you understand computers and will help me click hereCollapse )

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[14 Feb 2006|11:44pm]
Today is Valentines day... and My Birthday. Today was weird. I stayed home aaaallll day.

I'm usually only a little sad on v-day because I am usually alone... but hey its always my brithday right?

Well I missed classes today because my mom is insane. So I have been sitting on the internet all day playing neopets... I am 5 shut up you know you play it!

My dad stopped by at around 1 and gave me the sim card to my new cell phone! I put it in my old phone until i get my new cool camera phone tomorrow! He also gave me a really sweet card. I LOVE MY DAD.

Kate also came by and gave me a cute little cake that says I LOVE JAMIE on it, and a rose (which I love) and some random pancake mix. I dunno we really like pancakes.

I called people and gave out my new number. That reminds me that robby didn't call me back because he is a bitch. And left me with a cliffhanger to our conversation. lol.

My mom gave me a dvd player, and Cry Baby on dvd. So now I can give back stef's. haha. She gave me a card and a chocolate rose too. I also got some money from the grandparents. And I feel like I should call and say thank you, even though they didn't call me, but I have been tying up the phone all day.

Anywho, that was my day . . . boring! haha but I am pretty content.

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[12 Feb 2006|12:11pm]

"Will you go the the USA, as in 2003-2004 ?

Brian: To be honest, if i don't come back there anymore, i'll be the happiest man on the world. (to the others) You too, no ?
Stefan: There're more beautiful places in the world...
Brian: I don't wanna go to a fucking country that takes our fingerprints to let us come in. Fuck off united states! They are responsible of everything! They financed Saddam Hussein, armed Oussama Ben Laden! They must clean their shit before looking after others !"

WTF ??


If they don't come here... I might just do the unthinkable... and not be one of their fangirls anymore...


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[11 Feb 2006|11:15am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Today my mother told me that the steak I ate for dinner the other night was NOT from a cow.

It was a deer.

I'm a vegitarian now.


PS: my mother turned off my cellular plan so everyone is gonna have to call me on my house till I get a new phone.

Life sucks.

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[10 Feb 2006|03:50pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

1. screen name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. weirdest food you like:
14. do farts make you laugh:

1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. Optional: POST A PICTURE OF you:

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[08 Feb 2006|08:41pm]
[ mood | chipper ]


1) Are your parents married or divorced?
seperated for 6 or so years, divorcing now

2) Vegetarian?

3) Going to Heaven?

4) Come close to dying?
hmm Not too close ever

5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7?
dimond earings my father bought me, my watch, and my two rings

6) Are you eating?
No, but I am really hungry

7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
no brocoli

8) Makeup
I wish I was good at makeup, I always try, but I need money for makeup .. which i dont have

9) Were you usually the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationships?
probably the dumpee, but not because I deserved it but because I didn't care enough about myself to break up first.

10) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
If I was really really really rich.

11) What do you wear to bed?

12) Have you ever done anything illegal?

13) Can you roll your tongue?

14) Pluck your eyebrows?
um yes

15) What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
this is a silly question. I wear one with a brown leather strap. And the little light just died on it.

16) Abortion?

17) Hair color?
Dark Brown

18) Future child's name?
Girls: Cassey, Kayla, Christina (maybe)
Boys: Daniel, Jason, (still working on it!)

19) Do you snore?
I think so

20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go?
Europe lots of places in Europe

21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No, they are annoying

22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
I would buy some houses/ appartments, for me and my family

23) Gold or silver?

24) Hamburger or hot dog?
hot dog!

25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?

26) Beach, city, or country?
hmm each has its own way of being great. I love the beach but to live I would say city

27) Who was the last person you touched?
I smacked my brother last night.

28) Where do you like to eat?
Diners/coffee houses

29) What do you think of Mr. Pibb and Red Vines?
together? ew?

30) Have you loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
yes :(

31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
sure because it is more acceptable for girls to dress like guys

32) Ever been involved with the police?
my mom called the police on my dad and my brother but they didnt do anything wrong so it was gay.

33) Believe in Santa?

34) Do you talk in your sleep?

35) Beach or pool?

36) Can you cross your eyes?

37) What's your favorite song at the moment?
Infra-red - placebo

38) Window seat or aisle?
Window seat

39) Ever met any famous bands/singers?
brandon flowers of the killers and jason hill of louis xiv

41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?

42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
ricki is my home girl

43) Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?
Sure if I had it done

44) How long does your shower last?
15-20 minutes

45) Do you drive a stick?

46) Cake or ice cream?
CAKE I LOVE CAKE... i am so fat

47) Like to have fun?
of course

48) What time do you get up?
anywhere from 6am-1pm depending on what I have to do

49) Have you ever given money to a bum?

50) When was your first crush?
Hmm. Elementary school

51) Where do you wish you were?
With my friends, somewhere awesome

52) Have you ever broken someones heart?
I don't know, I hope not really

53) Ever been given a ring?

54) What are you looking forward to?
Summer, Life without parents (which should be coming soooon)

55) Last gift you received?
victorias secret purfume

56) Last sport you played?
ha i dont even remember

57) Things you spend a lot of money on?
clothes, worthless stuff

58) Where do you live?
timonium maryland

59) High school you attend(ed)?

60) Last wedding attended?
my uncles a while ago

61) Favorite fast food restaurant?
Burger King

62) Where do you work?

63) Can you cook?
Not very well

64) Most hated food?
buffalo wings

65) Can you sing?
not well but i do it anyway

66) Last concert attended?
the killers

67) What are you doing now?
Filling out this survey

68) Favorite alcoholic drink?
I would say Vodka if i didnt puke a lot last time... so i guess smirnoff triple blacks

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[07 Feb 2006|08:07pm]
I didn't get much sleep last night. I had a limited time to sleep because of my morning class and I spent most of that time being entertained by a bunch of kids on acid.


Even though I didn't get much sleep the night was still pretty fun.

Today I watched the movie Meet Joe Black. I had never watched it before. It was so cute. I loved it!

Brad Pitt. mmmmm.

And now I am watching more tv, gilmore girls... buh bye!

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[06 Feb 2006|01:31am]
[ mood | tired ]

Today was my first day at Pizza Hut. It is just like quiznos. Only all I really have to do is answer phones. Since robby was my ride there and back, I had to stay for his 8 hour shift. It was soposed to be 7 but since he had to be in charge of the store tonight he had to stay and close the store. Which sucks if you have ever worked at a fast food establishment.

Answering phones is easy. Its just getting used to the computer program for taking orders that is a little stupid. I did pretty well though, I didnt have to ask too many questions.

There was a point where it was just me and robby in the store at night so I helped him clean up and I put the tv in the back onto family guy. We both were distracted by it for a few minutes.

I didn't really know how to help close so I just had to wait.

I have to read many chapters of some of my text books for school. I will be doing that all of tomorrow. BLAHHH. I am really enjoying my music bussiness class. I am learning how to be a tour manager, and a good band manager really. That would be amazing wouldnt it?? I want to be a tour manager so badly, even if i never tour anyone really great, it would still be amazing.

I don't think that I will be working at pizza hut for very long. I can already tell that I will end up having to do more work than most people there. Just because I am not the kind of person to just stand around.

I actually think I might get a job at a Holiday Inn near me doing front desk, because they will start me at 8-9 $$ an hour, according to my aunt who works at one. And I wouldnt have to be bothered with cleaning stuff, I could basicly do what I do at Pizza Hut, Answer phones. And I would get to dress nicely everyday.

Okay well that is basicly my life as of right now! Kinda shitty ang boring but its just in that shit period right now. When summer comes around that is when shit will get crazy! AND WILD BABY. I have lots of things planned for summer. I hope it all happens.



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[30 Jan 2006|11:46am]
[ mood | confused ]

Yesterday was a horrible day.

It all started off really stupidly. I woke up at noon, went in the kitchen. My mother and Dennis were having breakfast. My mom cooked. I made a comment about how she didn't wake me up and ask me if I wanted anything. Which she would do every sunday when I was little.

I chatted with Robby on the phone for a while, he told me I should get up to pizza hut to do the stupid application thing. So I ask my mom to borrow the car to go and of course its over in glen burnie. She nor Dennis offered to take me. So I called my dad. Ms Rachel drove all the way from croften to pick me up.

We went up to pizza hut and I did my little interveiw and now I work there. with robbbyyyy!

Ms Rachel and I went and had lunch at the BK lounge. ha. I joke because yesterday was one of those days where if you didnt laugh you would be crying hysterically. My dad called ms rachel and was very upset. He told her that my mother had sold our house and that he had to take chris and myself... and there was nothing he could do about it.

I called my mother to see if she was lying. She wasnt. And she flat out told me that it was my fault. She told my dad that she didnt care about chris and me anymore. She doesn't want anything to do with us.

I cried to ms rachel. And then I didnt want to go home. So we went to target and looked around at stuff. I talked to robby on the phone practically all day. So I ended up going over to Ms Rachel's house, and chillin there with her and her kids and charlie brown (my dad/ms rachels chihuahua). My dad got there not too long after that and we all watched Flight Plan and ordered pizza.

I <3 MS Rachel!

At around 9 or so my dad and I headed to the eastern shore to his house. We talked about the current situation and my dad is going to save the day i think. He told me that we will do what we have to. He talked to my mother on the phone for a minute. She didn't know where I was. I don't even think she knew that I went to get a job.

My dad and I watched a movie called Chumscrubber at his appartment. It was very flippin wierd. But it had the song Pure Morning in it. So of course i just peed my pants.

I couldn't sleep that night. Maybe because I had to sleep in my day clothes or maybe because my life is fucking retarded. I ended up crying on and off. My dad stayed up till about 2 on the phone with ms rachel. I stayed up just thinking, I could hear him but not what he was saying.

I dont know what I am going to do. I might have to drop out of college for a while. :(

I'm getting my own cell phone. And I might have to get my own computer. Which means I may not be on it for a long time. So I'm very sorry to all my internet peeps. In a month or so you might not see me for a while.

Well I think I am done.



"I'm well aware of how it aches
And you still wont let me in.
Now I'm breakin down your door
To try and save your swollen face
though I don't like you anymore
You lying trying waste of space.
Before our inocence was lost
You were always one of those Blessed with lucky 7s
And a voice that made me cry
My oh my
You were mother natures son
eone to whom I could relate
Your needle and your damage done
Remains assorted twist of fate
Now im tryin to wake you up
Pull you from the liqued sky
Cause if I dont well both end up
With just your song to say goodbye
My oh my
A song to say goodbye."

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[28 Jan 2006|09:45pm]
[ mood | sympathetic ]

RIP Houdini <3

Image hosting by Photobucket

Don't worry. He lived a long life. I think it was all the cheese.



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Party at Maia's [28 Jan 2006|05:05pm]
Last night Matt and Maia picked me up from my house around 6 or so. We hung out at maia's dorm and ordered chinese. We watched Kung Pow and Animal House. Both funny ,both entertaining.

People started drinking when Gibby got there. Matt and Gibby drank a whole fuckload. Maia and I could hardly stand the sight of vodka so niether of us really drank. Maia didnt feel well so her and I sat in her room for a while watching music vids and such.

Maia layed down and I went in the other room and sat with matt and gibby who were druuunk. Then Matt thougth it would be amazing to get maia's roomate erica drunk. So he did. She was sort of hysterical but it was funny. Ali got some of it on her camera so maybe i will see that one day.

We all had lots of fun, and during one of erica's crazy rants about shoes and the universe matt passed out sitting up. Becca is my new favorite not drunk person lol. She and I got Erica chilled out and sent her to bed. Gibby was drunk but very awake and not ready for bed, he and i dragged matt onto the futon but first we dropped him on the floor... oops.

I went to lay down and all the lights are off and then... maia wakes up, and comes in the living room, so gibby and maia play video games for a while and talk while i try to fall asleep on the futon as well... but no... they make me watch music vids with them at 3am.

So finally at 5am i was allowed to go to bed. I had to yell at gibby to leave maia alone because we did NOT want any shots or to smoke any more!!! We all passed out and all was well.

Matt woke up suddenly this morning and said loudly "WHERE AM I... OMG YOU ARE A PERSON" and i was like "hi"

Matt was still drunk so we just layed and talked about random stuff and he made me laugh really hard about stupid things. Matt went to wake up maia and I got bored and cleaned up the kitchen and did some dishes.

We had to go because matt had to have his car back to his house, so we woke everyone up and headed out. I hung out at matt's house with maia. We watched matt play guitar. (he is amazing btw, like i thought southard was good but matt is like wow) We got pizza and watched Buzz lightyear... SP?

I headed home at about 4:30... and here i am! Lets see what happens next weekend lol

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[26 Jan 2006|11:07pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Today was good. I spent most of it out of my house which is always good. Robby picked me up at around noon so we could go buy our books for school.

We got our books and notebooks and blah blah. Robby and I have the same Music class this semester. Which is going to be interesting. In all the years i have known robby i have never once been in the same class as him. Essex is the first school we both have went to. Should be fun!

We drove around and waited for jen to get off work, chatted with my brother for a few and talked about random random random things.

We got jen and headed for their appartment. Jen and I had fun watching xena, talking to the repair guy, giggling about how robby is a giant homosexual... and so on.

I love jennypooh.

Robby came home earlier than we thought and we all sat and listened to Jimmy Hendrix and David Bowie. And we played with his baby snake. I LOVE SNAKES, this one was really nice and very cute!

They have a zoo in their appartment right now and the bunny licked me. Paige was in love with me too today. haha

So at around 10 or 10:30 they drove me home, and here I am! Tomorrow I am going to Maia's again. I'm still not sure how I am getting there but whatevaaaa. I will find a way!



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[25 Jan 2006|11:29pm]
[ mood | angry ]


its my brothers birthday today. My mom didn't do a damn thing to celebrate his birthday. She WAS going to bake him a cake. she didnt though.

My mother was a heartless bitch today. Until she got on the phone with her boyfriend and cried about how HORRIBLE HER KIDS ARE.


she is a selfish mother fucking bitch.

My brother had a horrible day today. I was by his side the whole day though, backing him up when he needed it. I even left and walked all the way to his girlfriends house with him.

I did the best i could for him today... just for him to turn around and say that EVERYONE in his life turned their back on him... EXCEPT MARY.

Not me. Not the one who deals with everything he does and defends him and helps him when he needs it. No... the girlfriend he has had for a week is there for him more than me.



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[24 Jan 2006|11:40am]
[ mood | envious ]

I'm looking on my placebo communitites and all the people who live in shitty america like me are crying about placebo's music video that is being shot in london today. And if any of us actually lived in london... we all would be there!

Lucky lucky brit bitches! I love them all but DAMN THEM.

Oh well, I WILL MEET PLACEBO... one day. Maybe when they tour or maybe when i am rich and famous and hang out with them everyday... okay im retarded but whatever... a girl can dream!


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[22 Jan 2006|10:05pm]
[ mood | creative ]

HHMMM mood swings today...


best budsCollapse )


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[21 Jan 2006|10:08pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Last night i discovered that 6-7 shots... is too many shots. If i didnt feel like puking everytime i thought of the vodka i consumed, i would say it was delicious.

I went with maia and matt and gibby to maia's dorm last night. We were just gonna chill and drink in the dorm. Just the four of us. Maia's roomate becca was there for a while but she left to go to a party. Everything was fine for the most part. Maia and I danced in the living room while the boys who were not as drunk as we were, watched us and laughed.

I went to the bathroom at some point, where i started to get very sick. I remember falling over and not being able to move. I remember maia being very upset. And I remember both maia and matt holding my hair. At some point matt lifted me to my feet and made me walk to the living room, where i passed out.

I have felt so sick all day long. I slept through most of today. I need for MAIA to tell me what happened last night. I'm still a bit fuzzy on some things. I havent been that drunk in a long time. Ever actually. The last time i got sick while drinking, I was able to walk around and talk to people afterwards. This time i was laying on the floor unable to move, crying.

I will remember to never do that many again. I knew it during that last one that it was a bad idea. I knew as soon as I thought it tasted good and not horrible like i usually do.

I think my left ear is infected. I wore my earings for too long. I can only have real jewlrey on all the time. Fake ones i can wear for a little while but i shouldnt wear them for too long. NOw i think my left ear is trying to close up. I need to force a new hole in it soon, with my dimond earings. My nice ones so they dont bother my ears.

I still feel kinda icky. But at around 6:30pm today i think i felt better. So at around 7:30 robby came by, gave me my application and talked to me for a few. We were talking on the phone for a while before that, I was laying down and couldnt move so I was very bored.

After I went to bed last night. Everything seemed very silent to me, until earlier, until about 4 or 5 when i called my aunt. There was no noise in maia's dorm all morning, then after my dad picked me up i went home, and layed on the couch. Everything was silent. All day, i slept... i had left the front door unlocked, but i didnt care. the only thing that woke me up was my dog barking at something outside.

I was kindof releaved when robby came over. Then my mom came home. Everything was back to normal then.

GAH I will never drink like that again. I must apologize to everyone who was there again. I feel horrible. I dont remember where i threw up but i know it couldnt have been just in the toilet. And i feel so horrible that maia got upset. I think it was when she saw me fall over in the bathroom. ugh I know for a moment i was terrified when maia fainted in my bathroom not too long ago. I wonder if she was scared for me.

What a night.


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[19 Jan 2006|07:36pm]
I just downloaded MSN, so anyone with msn messenger should teach me how to make friends and add them as a contact.

I have no idea how to do it, but my email is : oceanlight16@aol.com and my little username on there is jamiekins.

Anyone that could help me figure this thing out? THANKS!!!

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[05 Jan 2006|03:45pm]

I won a spot on a guest list for a louis xiv concert. Too bad its in LA. And I don't have the $500.oo dollars to drop. HMMMM

OH WELL. I will meet you again jason! AAHH


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